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A dreamer refusing to wake up...A child at heart refusing to grow up..You can always find me in my own Utopian world..:-)
Hello beautiful world,
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It's been long time since I'm here. Been busy with other things, ummm just life. :) Did a lot of shopping and bought some beautiful outfits last week. As I recently published my first book I feel like I'm entering into the second phase of my reading life. As I'm used to slow and steady approach, taking time and planning about my reading goals in future.
Life's good, peaceful and content. As I'm not used to be part of rat race I'm slowly making my journey in my own lane which is mine alone. This month of Sravana Masam is going to keep me occupied with pujas and other traditional practices. Meanwhile reading and working on an article for a magazine.
Ummm what else !!! Nothing. :)
See yaa..
Ahhhh !!!! The roller coaster weekend has come to an end. I'm tired and now sitting in a cafe with a cup of coffee, dusting off thoughts by blogging. Here's the picture of a cafe that is nearby our house. We can reach there anytime by walking.
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When your perceptions or notions turn into absolute reality, that's a perfect "Aha" moment for you. :) You get to tell yourself , "Hey, told you so". I usually see people as unique individuals and give them benefit of doubt even though they belong to certain crowds and groups I do not approve of , or people who are not my cup of tea. However their true colours are revealed sooner or later. Disappointment, yes. They are not even close to your basic standards. I know I'm sounding rude.
But what is it that all these people have in common ? What is it that binds them so strongly together ? I ask myself. Here's few common traits I observed.
* They have a serious need for acceptance and approval. Because most of their personal lives are absolute mess. These poor poor things do not have healthy relationships with direct family and kids.
* They might be struggling with physical / mental health issues and traumas. I really feel sorry for them. They or their family members might be going to therapies. Sadly, It's not their fault.
* They are spineless cowards who need communities to hide their cowardice.
* Lack of character and lack of integrity that makes them wants to desperately merge in.
* Their common thirst for fame, they do not need truth, they cannot differentiate between good and evil, they simply join any crowd if they think that helps them gain a little bit of attention and fame.
* They are clowns who simply dance by the rhythm of the crowds without any second thought. Most of us misjudge their pettiness as goodness.
* Their fear of aging, eventually losing control. To get over this, or to get validation, they do not hesitate to stoop down to any levels.
* Where grannies and nannies act like sweet sixteen, talk rubbish to get attention, behave shamelessly in public.
As they say , "birds of feather flock together", they connect with similar people. The cynics, curmudgeons, cowards , liers, dishonest and the characterless. That's where they feel like home because they identify themselves with such people.
All these are the thoughts that occurred to me instantly whenever I think about these rotten communities.
Now, enough of judging and mocking ,
Years of literature reading allows you live a thousand lives. You can see your perception and theirs as well. You cannot get angry, you cannot hate them either. Instead you simply try to understand where they are coming from. You totally "get them" . You put your feet in their shoes. And you forgive them in your heart quietly and gladly remove yourself from all those unhealthy environments and move on.
(On a funny note, the title of this nonsense post is influenced by "The song of ice and fire". :)) Recently we finished watching GOT for the second time, in our home theater.)
Tomorrow is the day. Just one more exam to go and then, the roller coaster ride begins.. Kiddoo is already excited making plans. And it's amusing to see him jumping out of joy. These kids remind us of our childhood. The day of final exam is something..!!!!
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God bless me !!! :) :) Shopping for farewell, parties, get togethers and going to places. Ufff... Moreover shopping with that little brat has becoming challenging nowadays. He became very picky, (umm just like his mom of course :P ) After days of quiet it feels a bit overwhelming for me even to think all about it.
But one thing, I used to feel like he no longer needs me like before. Cause whenever I tried to help him, "I will take care of it Maa" was his standard answer. He like to study all by himself and he don't like me near him while studying. So I started giving him space, and watching him from a distance. But as the exams are approaching, he started to feel the stress and a couple of months ago asked for my help in Hindi (trust me, a real cloud 9 moment for Momma). It was the only subject he hated the most. :)) And here we are, more than glad to help. :))
Surprisingly we both enjoyed those lessons. Me translating every word for him and we both laughing at the same time cracking jokes on the Latin like Hindi. Meanwhile, I was left behind in my own reading goals. However if Goodreads allow I would like to add three books of Hindi, including Grammar edition to catch up the reading challenge this year :P :)
Helloooo Universe...How have you been ? I'm good. Too busy to journal or do anything substantial in fact. :P Living my life, enjoying myself. There is a lot to share with the world but I'm neither free nor in a mood to interact with it yet. Yeah, introvert issues :) :) Currently I don't want to be bothered much.
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The early summer days somehow evokes a desire to take care of myself. Especially physically. Because we just come out of hibernation from chilly winter days, our body seems a bit rigid, the skin needs a bit more cleansing, scrubbing and toning. The dead skin must be removed. So after some spa like routines at home, I'm again feeling like a feather.
And nowadays whenever I check social media for few minutes, I'm grabbing a popcorn for myself to sit in the front row to be an audience for the non-stop rantings, nonsense issues and loud cries of traumas. Not finding anything worthwhile..Hmmmm.. So what we book nerds do ? What else ? We just bury our head in a book. :) :) And forget that the world even exist :))
The exams started from today. After a long time the house is quiet again :)) I sat down for a while to enjoy this solitude after non-stop busy morning routine since 4.30 am. Finally the buses headed towards examinations centers. And the good news is, today I'll have a little "me time",Yayyy :)) I would like to finish my currently reading book and if I still have time, planning to work on a couple of drafts.
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Coming to the homemaking front, I decluttered the wardrobes. Doing some window shopping online so that I can have some idea about current trends. Also making few plans in the holidays, some get togethers, visiting places and inviting people over lunch and dinners, all before his school reopening. As the city is full of my family and friends, all these get togethers became a norm. We took a little break, exam season can be a good excuse :P :)) However, this time our kiddoo seems to have more guests than both of us combined :))
And one more exciting thing for me is, we bought a couple of shuttle bats to play in the evenings, slowly teams are forming in our community. I love to play shuttle, when I was a child I used to play with my childhood buddy. :P . It is good physical exercise along with our walks.
Mungo Jerry's "In the Summer Time (Radio Edit)" and Elvis's "Always on my mind" were smashing on repeat mode from the surround system all over the house. It's a bit of inspiration to do works like organizing my clothing and accessories. Somehow I enjoy organizing very much. Not just my surroundings, but my thoughts too.. Many authors agreed that it's a sort of meditation to keep your surroundings clean. It effects your mood. I hate cluttered places. In our house this sort of OCD is more genetic, we are cleanliness freaks :)) I realized I need to replace a couple of ancient organizers I'm using since 15 long years. I think I badly need an upgrade in this area. :)
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When I was a child I used to imagine myself owning a tiny little house on the banks of a lotus pond or nearby a lake with beautiful swans in it. :) Just as Tinker bell's house my tiny house will be surrounded by colourful flowers and tallest trees. I though, why not a tree house for me !! Where I'm the only one who can climb and hide myself away from the world. :) My house would be filled with books and lots and lots of food. I can manage with fruits too.. Plenty of them :)
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Even though I'm not much into pets, I can manage with a cute little puppy. Ewww.. No cats. Okay, how about the routine then ? All alone in a forest ? Nope. Every morning I will get down my tree house, with a basket, I will carry a book or two with me. Then I'll go wandering all over the forest, pick flowers and make a crown for myself like a Disney princess :)) Fill my basket with wild berries, veggies and fruits. "Who grows them all ? Your nanny ?" you might ask. Yes, you've got a point. But it's a Utopian world my dear. everything happens as I wish. :) So no questions asked. Now, I come back to my tree house after taking my long walks, a bit of reading and afternoon nap under shades of trees, before getting dark. :) Then I cook my food and do some more reading and go to bed. End of the story. Now wish me sweet dreams. :) :)
This morning there was an interesting conversation happened on recently published Murakami article. It's about artistic muse. If you find muse that inspires your art, becomes the reason for you to wake up every morning , something that drives you crazy, unstabilizes you, then keep it. Even if it's a love-hate relationship, cherish it. Evolve from it.
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But don't forget one thing : Gibran said it so eloquently.
"Live a true love story, tell no one. People often spoil beautiful things." :) :)
Summer is almost here. Hyderabad is turning hot day by day. Thankfully we do not experience the heat inside the house. The scent of jasmines is filling the evenings and we are eagerly waiting for the mangoes to arrive. :)
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After overwhelmed by too much social interaction yesterday, today I'm back in my cozy cave hiding and recharging. :) Of course reading and gardening. Also I need to spend some time to organize my wardrobe. I do often spend time curating my bookshelves, but not my cloths :P Nerdy problem perhaps. :)) All the winter clothing is taken out and replaced by cottons...Oooo I love cottons. :)
Ummm.. That's all for the day. All I need now is, my cup of coffee. Ciao !!